Thursday, September 01, 2005

The Lowest Expectations

We've had our meeting with Dr. Forman, and he has made it plain that he does not see any room for recovery by Judah. It is impossible to say when Judah may pass, but from his perspective it will occur at any time within the next several days. Apparently, Judah's body is showing typical signs of major failure.
In the meantime, we will continue aggressive treatment as per Judah's wishes. Dr. Forman has assured us that Judah will not and does not feel any pain. I don't want to assume Judah will die, but Dr. Forman said that he has never seen a patient recover from Judah's current position. So we are preparing.

16 Comments:

At 8:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

The Wozs

 
At 8:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Judah,

You just keep fighting my friend. Miracles happen every day, and everyone's prayers are with you.

Martha, Benji, and Issy, I'm in awe of your strength and courage.
Be strong and be well.

Your friend,

Mike (Mickey)

 
At 8:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Judah--
I think of you constantly. Please know that I love you, my friend.

Nancy L

 
At 8:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Please know that we are wishing and praying and thinking and hoping that Judah will somehow see his way through this. We can not know what G-d has in store for him, we can only hope that he is meant to be with us for a longer time.

There are so many of us thinking of Judah and all of you. Let our strength be yours.

Lisa and Gary Lainer

 
At 8:36 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Judah, Iss, Martha, and Benji,
Every day we read, we hope, we weep...our hopes and thoughts remain with you all.
Aneta & Jon

 
At 9:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Judah,
I left your room to rush home to make dinner for Stacie and Zoe. Once again by the time I hit the car the gravity of the situation set in and my eyes began to tear. I hate seeing you like this I hate that it doesn’t get better every day. So I put on some good tunes (no I haven’t found the CD yet) and tried to make it home. I was enjoying the music but at the same time I was getting sadder by the second. Then bang – my right front tire blew out. I safely made it to the side of the freeway. While I waited cars and trucks whizzed by shaking my car in their wake. The experience shook me up enough to remember -You are down but not out – you are fighting and I and all of us are with you on this fight to wherever it leads us. Only once did we talk about you not making it out of this mess and your smiled and said – with minimal paraphrasing – I’ll be pushing up daisies – the rest you’ll have to deal with. Well – I’m not ready yet and now I need a new tire.

- David

 
At 9:52 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We read. We think. We talk. We try to make sense of senselessness. We appreciate the gifts around us more each day.

We send endless warmth and hugs to your family.

Cheryn & Michael

 
At 9:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Judah,
Your strength, courage and determination are an inspiration to us all. You have touched so many lives and I don't believe you will stop fighting.
Martha, Issy and Benji, my thoughts and prayers are with you. You are such an amazing and wonderful family. Just know that you have so many friends and family who love you and will always be there for you.
Love,
Janet

 
At 10:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"the darkest hours are just before dawn".
i anticipate returning to this blog on sunday to read of how you have once again confounded those who thought you were facing the insurmountable.
i wish you all the best judah and white family.

erika

 
At 10:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Judah,

I read something today that I know you would have argued with, but as well would have appreciated. People (certainly many of us on the blog) tend to look at cancer as a war, as a fight. This author suggested we look at it as a journey. The difference is that it turns failure or loss in the "fight" into twists and turns, retaining dignity and preserving hope. The "guilt feelings" that can creep in if things get grim despite our efforts is transformed into meaningful effort with discovery of new realities.
This may not help a whole lot, but know Judah (and all) that our love for you is everlasting, your dignity inspiring, and your impact on us is profound. We love you and have been with you along this journey as much as our capacity would allow. And now is no different.
You have a very big family, Judah. You are our brother.
I love you Judah.

--Josh

 
At 11:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Martha,

I once said that Judah proves that Superman has someone to contend with! I repeat that statement.

My love,
Yvonne

 
At 11:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Martha, Judah, Benji and Issy,
Thank you for your unflagging honesty, hope, strength and vulnerability. I will never forget it. Barbara

 
At 11:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My prayers have been with you all, and will continue. For Judah, and for you guys with him, I wish strength.
Much much love,
Sharon A.

 
At 11:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We are all holding your hands, and will not let go no matter the outcome of this journey. Judah, Martha, Issy & Benjie, you are the paradigm for courage, strength, love and humanity. We are humbled in your presence.

Love, prayers, tears and hope for whatever destiny lies ahead for Judah.

Andrea

 
At 12:03 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Martha, Issi,Benji and Judah,
My heart breaks with you and I am forever touched by your dignity, beauty,warmth and openess.
May you be comforted by the spirit of love that surrounds you in all of us.
Ben G

 
At 12:11 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Judah,

Your painful yet dignifying journey has left us all speechless and amazed. We admire your courage, your devotion to life, your willingness to exhaust all means no matter how excruciating they are, and your optimism in the face of endless odds. You may be gone soon but you will remain always in our memories, thoughts, prayers, happiness and sorrow. Your soul may return to the Creator, but your spirit will accompany us for the rest of our lives.
Miss you very much

Eli

 

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